by *silent-order


Who's pumped I'm back?

I AM!!!!



P.S. CRAZY New Doctor News!
For the long version: [link]
For the short version: [link]

After a few doses and months of meds going through my system,
small improvements are showing up here and there..and I couldn't be happier!

I've noticed slightly more energy, I'm actually using my computer again..
I'm online, shooting more often, editing a ton,
my focus is a bit better, I'm not quite as confused or forgetful,
and best of all..not just the pelvic pain,
but also the overall body pains are becoming easier to deal with daily! (:
There are still scary moments all too often,
but instead of lasting 6hours to 7 days, it's -usually- over in 10/30 minutes.

There are a few more steps to take before I'm totally healthy;
but after 3 years of waiting for answers, I don't at all mind waiting for correct treatment..
it's just such a weight lifted finally knowing what's wrong!!



I'm almossssst hesitant to believe it,
since so many times I've been let down by the wrong diagnosis.

But the proof is in the way I feel;
Lupron wouldn't work if I didn't have endometriosis!
And along with the Endo, I've been diagnosed with interstitial cystitis,
a condition that usually occurs within 80% of women with Endo.
Not stopping there, I have fibromyalgia..
which makes dealing with the other two on a daily basis extremely exhausting.
But thanks to great doctors, a supportive mother,
a lot of self control, and the right medications; health finally seems possible!

It's been so long since I woke up without an ounce of nausea or pain..
ohh my goodness, I cannot waiiit for the day! & will do whatever I can, patiently, until it's here. [:


<sub>[Read the more detailed story; and more about my daily life
at my constantly updated blogspot & tumblr!
- my new tumblr w/ the same ol' name is still being fine tuned into what I want it to be;
please re-follow or, sign up & follow me..it's such an inspiring place,
& I've learned a lot about people through their posts..made deeper friendships, which I could always use.<3</sub>

I'm not sure when I'll be uploading new images to dA;
but I WILL be uploading images to flickR, fotki, and my blogs when they're ready..
so go there if my gallery here seems like a ghost town.
[I don't want to start adding images again until they're the new direction I'm going! ]
It's autumn...the most BEAUTIFUL time where I live,
and with my new-found energy there will be MANY outdoor shots to come!!

After a few weeks of sleeping off an excruciating nausea/pain spell,
I have come back to life!
Since being on new medication (Cymbalta) to stop the Fibromyalgia pains&fatigue..I can feel, and in person, you can really see the difference! Not totally back to my self, but I have more energy, more bounce in my step. I'm sleeping soundly& I'm actually feeling quite a bit stronger, &juuuuust well enough to shoot a collection or two, swim for a bit, &even shop for awhile!..all things I haven't been able to indulge in much,  without pain&nausea to fight/manage, or leaving early for home/the hospital, in a long long time.

To celebrate feeling better, Alicia & I partied then dyed my hair!
It had been such a LONG time since I had seen her pretty face
OR rocked colorful, JAW DROPPING hairs!
I've had blonde w/ pink before, but this time I wanted purple mixed in
[I think the prettiest would be a light lavender, and faint cotton candy pink!]

These colors are so bright, you need shades!!
First (3) photos of new hair taken at night with all bedroom lights on;


Second image: Taken in natural light of day;
It's neon! highlighter style! It makes me giddy with love

[see more photos + info on the dyes we used@blogspot<3]
^Also where all my hospital 'adventures' & doc visits will be blogged from now on,
this is my art account, & I'm finding all these [non]health journals oddly distracting.



ALL my blogs are getting healthy doses of updating, add/follow to keep up!
blogspot | tumblr | fyeahbokeh   
[remember, you can actually submit your own photos @ fyeahbokeh! please do!]

one of my photos was manipulated &
published in the expensive Monster edition of lady gaga's fame monster;
without my permission or knowledge.


^it's this photo, but, SUPER manipulated so I have no pants
to look JUST like gaga;

my ORIGINAL image was taken a year before she was even famous.
and apparently it's in the fan section, i'm a "monster"

kinda pissed off.

I'm not really sure what to do about the situation.

I don't know how it got in there..
if someone manipulated my photo, then submitted it to gaga's team/cd,
they NEEDED to ask me first. (I would've said no though, maybe that's why they didn't )
It's clearly stated in my stock
NO PRINTS or redistribution of model/self stock. Personal use ONLY.
or maybe it was gaga's team. or her herself, just lookin' for fans.

I don't care who it was..
YOU NEEDED TO ASK FIRST!
and if there's no credit, I'd like it.
since you know IT'S ONLY MY FACE AND PHOTOGRAPH AND ALL.
[I'm ashamed to say that looking at this manip; is my vagina bleeding?! ew]


OMGGOMGG. SERIOUSLY?!
this is just ridiculous. I mean. really.
only me. only my photo.
and of course it has to be vs the "fame monster"
while I'm pretty much dying.

I swear sometimes my life
is like the Truman show in some parallel universe.

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