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In health related news;
I've been having some serious issues getting 98% doctors to listen;
it's fucking frustrating and unfair.
The doctor I had seen that was supposed to perform my surgery
literally fought with me the whole time--
every answer I had given her was "wrong" even though there's
OBVIOUSLY no right or wrong answer when it comes to health.
I told her it hassss to be endomitrisosis, or lady-issue related

She just had the guts to say
"I know it's not what you think it is-
gut instinct tells me so.

But, I'll perform the surgery to prove that's not the issue
so you can finally look for the real problem"

UH.
:|

so WHY give me the surgery if you KNOWW it's not it?
seriously, get your facts straight..
stop trying to prove me wrong when i'm sick looking for HELP
and you're stubborn and pissed I thought of it first.

well, the bitch just made me cry like a baby the whole time
because it made me lose all hope in everything again;
she said I'd have to wait another TWO months before I could even have the surgery
anndd well, I fear I'll be fucking dead by then at this point.

So, I called back a few days later and had them send my records to a new doc;
that totally  believes in everything I'm saying and will actually HELP me out--
they seem to want to do anything they can--including the surgery, with no harsh feelings. :]

oh and guesssss what I received in the mail!!??

A letter from the bitch doctor herself,
stating she had seen my request to leave her office..
then it went on to say my test
from OVER TWO MONTHS AGO came back POSITIVE
FOR ABNORMAL TISSUE GROWTH;
(which I was telling her all along-and she was fighting against)
and that I have to go back to HER to get surgery
or else it'll probably turn into cancer. (haha, nice lie, lady.)

OH!
THANKS FOR TELLING ME NOW THAT I'M LEAVING.
GLAD YOU MENTIONED IT BEFORE.!

AND THANK YOU FOR SENDING ME ACTUAL PROOF
TRYING TO COVER YOUR ASS;
I FORWARDED IT TO BERKSHIRE MEDICAL CENTER;
THEY COULDN'T BELIEVE YOU SENT THAT!!!

YOU'RE TOOTALLLY IN TROUBLE NOWWWW.

:D
:boogie:

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I got myself a lensbaby composer + macro lens
I'M IN LOOOOOOOOOOOOVEEE!! :faint:
I'm prettty positive I just want to shoot with them from now on
:giggle:

I also got myself some fun new filters!
gradients and IR and specialty focus<3

&& literally $400 worth of makeup.
I have a problem. ahahahahahhaa. whatever.

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  • Mood: Wow!

New perspective [':

Tue Mar 17, 2009, 9:30 AM
  • Mood: Love
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after my little rant a few days ago; i've cooled off due to
some inspiring words from friends/fans that gave me the strength and inspiration to continue to upload some public work..<33

"you can be confident and take comfort in the fact that YOU know what's truly yours. YOU know your ideas are original to YOU. And your fans and followers know that too"

"Darling I know it's frustrating to be emulated in such a sickeningly stalkerish way, but that is the price of being GOOD at what you do ;)"

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:aww: :giggle:

you guys are totally right!!!

why let the insecurity of someone else..
stop ME from doing what I love?

&& i've already landed my dreaaaaam career...
why worry over meanies that are just intimidated and second rate??? ;p

<3




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All images in gallery copyright =LadyClarabellafaire
and are not to be uploaded, manipulated, reproduced, or redistributed
by any one, in any way.

Permission for *any* use of my work is always needed.

Email: clarabellafaire@yahoo.com
for permission & information on licensing rights to any of my work.
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: jobforacowboy-entombment of a machine
  • Drinking: Cherry Pucker


Thanks to all who were interested,
but i'm pretty sure she found a
wonderful new home! =]
i'll missss you, lady.
we had some good times. :'[

I haven't been feeling too motivated lately,
I have a lot of ideas and concepts in my head;
I just don't know how to execute them with
a lack of locations and costumes needed.

Once I get a good chunk of change saved I'll probably start working on my portfolio shots a ton more again but lately I've been too busy with work, driving, trying to keep my sanity. All that fun stuff.

I turn twenty in four months. That's pretty sweet

&& It is absolutely insaaane how much love I get everytime `girltripped posts a photo from a shoot I've modeled for. Thank you guys, so much! I'm glad you like my work, and it was definitely a good time working with them. They're amazing people. But you knew that already <2





&Quite a few of my deviations are prints now;
Go ahead and take a looksie then buy some photos to decorate your walls!!
<3333!
:excited:

I NEED MODELS && PHOTOGRAPHERS!!
I need to photograph more males, bands & alternative females..if you, or someone you know lives or travels to The Berkshires/Western Massachusetts area, contact me about hiring. I'm looking for modeling jobs too, if anyone needs models that are willing to pretty much chop of their face for the sake of an amazing photograph =]

FAQs: Jan 17, 2011

Thu Nov 23, 2006, 4:51 PM
stock - formspring - flickr - tumblr - prints - bokeh - twitter

Can I use your photos(s) on my website/account as an icon?
No.

I'd prefer my self portraits not end up as someone else's avatar.
Though I don't mind being featured, told about it, and linked backed to. :handshake:

WHY NOT?
Since my photos are copyrighted and watermarked, under the law you aren't allowed to manipulate, sell, publish, etc..the work. I don't give permission to those who want to use my self portraits as avatars, but I WILL give permission to draw+paint me any of my work- as long as I'm given a little credit, and a view of the finished piece you've created!


Want to publish my images in your Magazine or as your CD or book cover?
I love working with artists and authors/publishers! Please contact me: clarabellafaire@yahoo.com  with the image you'd like, I'll even do open idea commissions for clients. Just remember, CREDIT Clarabellafaire Photography & to ask mefor the proper permission & high resolution files.  You may not publish anything without my foreknowledge.


Why do you watermark your images?
10 years ago when I started posting images online, I didn't have much of a following or audience of any kind. I was naive to the dark dramas of the internets, I even wrote private detailed journals of daily events..later to be found on another diary of a stranger who had involved herself in my daily life..claiming we were friends, had a sleepover at my house, then together went to a psychologist appointment. I'm sorry but, wtf?! o.O As if that wasn't weird enough..two years later, I find a website with my face and photos plastered all over it..the girl stating it was her in the images, photographed by a friend. Since then, I've been protecting my images with my name and website. I may not be able to keep thieves away, but I can at least take one step towards legal action with the copyright on the image. I find them to be priceless.


What camera should I buy?
I believe it's up to you to choose the camera that suits your personal needs and preferences best!(: We all have our own styles and with the camera market having so many options to choose from, it's easy to find the right one! Think about what you photograph the most, and what your camera will need for that. I myself, need a camera that is sturdy, and can handle shooting from a moving vehicle. Most importantly, interchangeable lenses..from macro to paparazzi distances. I use www.dpreview.com to research and compare before I make a commitment to buy..& I've been happy with every camera I've ever purchased! The website is phenomenal, suggesting sites to buy from and even examples of images taken with each camera-from the site and users like you and me!


Why don't you respond to me/my messages?
I maintain a few different art sites as well as site accounts, add an illness that often has me sleeping or too ill to check the computer and medicines that cause memory loss..you have my life.  Responses may not be immediate, but I try. Please, be kind- I'm not ignoring you..I'm trying to heal from an illness and get back to comments and emails as much as I possibly can. the best way of contacting me is via my phone. twitter...@clarabellafaire or email clarabellafaire@yahoo.com. Want my phone number to talk about future work? that's fine too.


When did you become a photographer?
There was really no exact moment..it was a bit of a process. As a child, I constantly had cameras around me..in my face with the words resounding in my ears.."smile!" I've always known I wasn't the college type...I wanted to be constantly creative, like my mother who painted.  I'd take more time appreciating images than others my young age..this one photo especially, hanging in my neighbor's house. It was a black and white nude, a mother and her child lit by lighting that created a shape that cascaded over them in such a way that was indescribably mesmerizing! It had more power than anything else I've ever seen and from that moment on if I was able to handle a camera, I'd get my hands briskly on it. My family realized my talent before I did..and bought me my very first digital camera at 15. At 17, I began working with clients for money. at 19, I worked in a portrait studio chain, photographing children and families, businessmen and prom dates. At 20, I freelanced in Brooklyn&NYC. At 22 I worked at a High-end boutique photographing designer clothing&accessories.  Now I'm waiting to see what I live has in store for me next. (:


What did you do/who were you before you became Clarabellafaire?
I played piano. For six years it was a part of my life..but things happened and I ended up leaving it behind. Writing and makeup became my major creative outlets- causing me experiment in ways that embarrass me when I think back to them. I was a terrible dresser & actually had eyebrows!


What inspires you?
Life!  Waking up every morning, and going to bed each night. My beautiful city & the gorgeous changing seasons all around me..nature is perfection, which I find more beautiful each day. Health, or lack there of. Family and friends, emotions, dreams and aspirations, fellow artists, different cultures, musical lyrics, books,  psychology, fashions+art from the past, space, science, world history. Nearly everything is an inspiration to me!


What kind of photo sets are you prepared to do?
As an  open minded photographer, with an endless imagination I'm interested in every and any type of job genre! Originally, portraiture I shoot a range of creative / journalistic style imagery. From your posed family portraits, to your wild child soul breaking lose and dancing freely for my lens..I'm able to capture it all! Weddings, High School Senior portraits, any event, any product you've created, Bands live & studio..Give me an idea, and I'll create a story with you! (:


What experience do you have with photography?
I have indentations on my eyes and nose from the camera. Statistics: 1 year Classic Portrait Studio experience, 1 year High Fashion Studio experience, 10 years freelance with 80+ models since '03, and 13 years modeling experience! I can pose your child, make them smile, and get a great shot in about 5 seconds! (thanks to one of my old jobs ^.^)


Do I need experience in modeling to work with you? 
Not one single bit! I enjoy working with those  that have no experience in front of the camera. I always like everyone to have a good time during my shoots, and do whatever I can to make you feel as comfortable and photogenic as possible.


Do you model?
Yes, I do! I've been modeling since a toddler and being in front of the camera is as natural as being behind it! Cash mostly; but I will accept dual beneficial shoots with other artists. (: I absolutely adore freely collaborating with others and feeding off different personalities! Currently, I've only worked with a few photographers, and I'm itching to work with more! I've been lucky enough to model for the epic WinterWolf Studios (`girltripped@deviantART) & the crazy but talented ~ChrisAddams, whom actually said he got into photography because of me! :faint: That's amazing! :omg: So modeling for him was surreal and an experience I hope happens many times!
If you're interested in working with me send me a note or email with details on what type of shoot you want to do, and the locations involved; I have numerous outfits, shoes, wigs, and props that may be of use that I'm always willing to bring along!


Are you available for makeup appointments without shoots?
Yes I am! Makeup is my second love, and I adore working on different faces with eclectic colors and fun materials. I have everything to create your dream look; girl next door, business professional, prom date, wedding beauty, pin-up girl, party girl, farmer girl, rainbow princess, Gothic queen, victorian stunner, punk rock hero, AND MORE! Email/call me with some of your ideas and wishes; as well as the date/time you'd like for your appointment.


What equipment do you use?:
I'm a simple girl..my newest work has been shot with just a Canon EOS 40DSLR, a Canon 18-55mm lens or Sigma 70-300mm lens.


Have you ever taken any classes?
Other than learning how to develop film, I'm completely self taught! I fell in love with the idea of creating and sharing my own personal ideas with the world..& found an outlet through cameras. I'm very hands on, preferring to learn and do everything by myself..and, the second I picked up a camera, I was hooked. With just my own knowledge, I feel allowed to shoot things I love.. not just the way they are, but they way I see them; I adore that feeling, and fear if I ever went to a school, I'd lose it.


Love your makeup, how do you do it?
Much appreciated. (: Makeup was the first artistic medium I really expressed myself with.. as a little girl for birthday and christmas gifts I'd be given those cheesy makeup sets for kids that you can find at any drugstore or grocery store toy isle. Sixth grade was when I started to seriously wear and experiment with makeup; and the love grew as I did..I'd go to school every day wearing rainbow eyeshadow one day..or smokey eye with glitter all over the next.


Photography,fashion&makeup tips,tricks/tutorials will be available here as life moves along. Ask me for tips here. (:


Where do you shoot your photos?
Mostly inside my home &my "home-studio", (my bedroom) Cities/towns visited, Beautiful outdoors; anywhere, walking or traveling in moving vehicles.


Who does your hair? What color is it? Naturally..?
Currently, I cut&dye my own hair..sometimes friends help (: It's white-blonde and naturally a sandy blonde. They stopped making the dye I used, so I'm in the middle of searching for another.  It's now white-blonde with pink. I'm thinking of teal/dark blue next..! (: What a beauuutiful combination.


You never look the same.. Why! What do you look like in person?
Dressing up is one of my favorite things, and I make sure to experiment as much as possible to create new and original looks. Wigs and makeup have been a long time love, and when mixed with a killer wardrobe& yards of fabric tulle..you've got a recipe for my chameleon modeling. & to be quite honest, I look the same in my pictures as I do in real life. I believe a lady should always be dressed, even if it's rather eccentrically..and, the makeup/hair I rock in photos I'm not afraid to wear walking around town. I'm always changing, and love playing different roles. It's too fun, and too etched into my life to think otherwise.


What is this illness you have?
Currently working on that. Though 3 years, 50something doctors; FAR too many ER and hospital admissions later.. I'm being treated for a mix of Fibromyalgia, Endometriosis, and Epilepsy. It's been a long journey.. many misdiagnoses and fights with nurses, tests that showed nothing, and tests that showed something, but no one ever did anything about. I've even been diagnosed with intussusception..and saw the photos of my inside-out insides. At this point, I'm just living minute by minute, and enjoying every second I'm alive. not in the ER. standing up straight. I've learned more about myself during this bout of sickness than in the 19 years or so before; so I call this my blessing in a disguise, that's sort of over staying it's welcome.


Where do you buy all of your clothes?
I like the best quality, but I also like saving ze moneys; to me, comfort and style are equally important. I shop at places that have affordable and unique items such as Forever 21, Pink Ice, Rue 21, Wet Seal, ModCloth, Shanalogic, Fred Flare.


What else do you enjoy doing?
Playing dress up, dying hair, designing clothes and accessories, scrap-booking, writing, baking, learning, piano, adventuring in the woods, in the city, anywhere I can go!, dreams;&watching them come true<3, the Golden Girls, staring at the stars, soaking in bubble baths, picnics at the lake


Why do you like photography so much?
It heals any hurt, and calms my nerves. It changed my life and myself, for the better, as time went on. Shooting literally makes me feel alive inside; as I'm noticeably most confident camera in hand; and I want to share that confidence with others! I love how a picture can be viewed a hundred times, in totally new ways; and I love how images can make you think, make you feel, make you do. The greatest and most humbling of all; is inspiring art pieces and people to pick up cameras.  Such amazing gratification for a middle-class girl from a small city. I'm so appreciative and so thankful for the beautiful people, jobs, and places photography has brought into my life.<3


Where do you see yourself in the future?
For now, I'm just trying to see myself in the present. (:



Photo Galleries&Blogs
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Flickr
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Personal/Contact
Email: clarabellafaire@yahoo.com or shopeclarabellafaire@gmail.com
@clarabellafaire for personal & professional updates
Formspring ask me questions, leave me comments. ^^
Wishlist ...psst! my birthday is November 30th!
Personal facebook

Purchase High Quality FOTKI.COM Prints (or just view photos that aren't anywhere else)
Portfolio
Behind-the-scene snapshots
Makeup work

Clarabellafaire Modeling
Model Mayhem +add me as your friend, & work with me!!!
Winterwolf Studios, `girltripped
Chris Addams, ~ChrisAddams
Angels in Ashes
Venomiss Clothing

Looking for artists to work with?


Let's collaborate!!

Professional Photographer & very experienced alternative model, looking to work with out-of-the-ordinary wardrobe designers, makeup artists, hair stylists, and other photographers & models!

Please email clarabellafaire@yahoo.com
(I don't read notes on here anymore, forgive me)
The websites I'm currently most active on
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facebook
Instagram | twitter | ModelMayhem
flickr portfolio

COPYRIGHT NOTICE


If you like & want to paint/photoshop/manipulate any of my images you must ask first. After you ask, I just ask that you give me credit, show me, &link final image here, to
Flickr orFacebook
:D
(tag your final works "clarabellafairestock")

:bulletred: You are NOT allowed to edit/redistribute/deliberately rip off/make money from any images in this or any of my galleries
(I have a lawyer. & he loves his job.
& I love it even more when he does it.)

:bulletred: Never remove/crop my watermark. Believe me or not, it's all illegal..
and very very rude!!!!!

:bulletpink: Have a question? FAQ's
(updated FAQ's will be on my Tumblr)
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If you have any serious inquires about using any OF of my images, retouching, or modeling for your art, website, magazine, book, project, CD, etc.. email: clarabellafaire@yahoo.com w/ title regarding your business proposition! I ADORE collaborations with other artists & getting each-other inspired.

Work inspired by my Work!

The stunning painted piece by ~Vampire-Victress

I could stare at it all day!